Today's conversations with my two kids was made me head ache.Sometimes I cannot control my emotions of not sweety pampy style talks with them.They are old enough to learned everything especially for themselves. My kids grown up without me since they are in grade one-Norman and Leezah.Ages 14 and 13 consecutively are like in thier adolescents period of becoming lazy,eating too much and spend time more on bed sleeping.
All these things that I never experienced during my early years.My father have time tables according to our ages what to do in that certain hours.I grown up with hatred but learned when I become a mother of three and I owed everything from my father's strict rules around and outside the house.
My kids grown up with the attitudes acquired from my husband of having like "one is enough,two is too much" .Gush!!!why he draw three kids,right? So if he ask the kids to do but they don't like it- he did everything without any words that I hated most.Without me there is very complicated by now to say or instruct things that I want to be like. As if they don't mind me saying in other line of the phone(voice calls).I felt hurt but I have nothing to do.
Last week schedule on getting online was without rizah- they told me she's still sleeping.My goodness it was already nearly lunch time(phils time) when they got online.Another thing that my youngest daughter attitudes was - breakfast was all set in the table prepared by her brother or sometimes with her father.I felt I'm breaking my head to hear that kind of lazy young lady of mind. My husband don't want to tell story and nonsense as he said always.I'm afraid as by now to think of what and how when they are alone in far places like me here abroad.